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October, 2007
"I like Myself Just the Way I AM"
My son Richard and I were
sitting on the back porch enjoying the sunny day with the gentle breeze that hints of the upcoming Fall. Richard is going to be twelve years old in a few weeks so between baseball, school and his budding social
calendar, I was appreciating my time with him. My son is a Libra sun sign so
when he is in the right mood he can be quite chatty. He was giving his point
of view about homework, “kids do enough in school that they need time to unwind after a long, hard day.” He was sharing his dream about being a pitcher for the Boston Red Sox. When he was talking about how when he is the pitcher what he will have to offer the team, the front of
his energy field lit up like a Christmas Tree. It is the part of our energy field
where we all put our hopes, dreams, and desires. Think of it as our “field
of dreams.” It is also where we place our “worst nightmares”
whether consciously or subconsciously. So Richard was sharing all the details
of what will be his responsibilities as a pitcher. For example, after a game
he attended, he stood outside for two hours with a bunch of kids who found out where “the spot” where the players
exit to get into their vehicles and leave. He stood at this secret spot and received
many autographs from the players. He was thrilled and that was his experience. So after the last game he attended, he was ready to do his part to get to the secret
spot and wait for the players. This time was different. The players left the parking area barely waving at the children never mind taking time to sign autographs.
Richard at first was devastated. He
had brought a new friend with him who happened to be from South Africa and had never attended a baseball game.
Richard had explained to his friend all about his past experience, but this time, he did not have “Manny”
waving at him – he swears- or receiving autographs. So here Richard had
a choice, he could hold on to the anger and disappointment or he could choose another outcome – put a different experience
in his ‘field of dreams.” I told him that we do not have all the
details, and it is better to assume benevolence instead of anger. He could think
maybe the players were very tired and they all agreed this time no autographs, or they had a plane waiting for them, or their
children were waiting for their Dads to come home from a long trip on the road. We
could go on and on with what could be going on with another person but the best way not to drain your energy from in your
“field of dreams,” where you put your desires into manifestation, is to change the anger to love. Be the one to take the high road. Choose to actively change
your thoughts and emotions to “I do not have all the details to assume anything.”
What I have been seeing in peoples’ energy field is as we are releasing from old, ancient patterns, our field
of dreams/manifestation field becomes quite foggy if we are not actively clearing it throughout the day. So what happens when we do not have a clear manifestation/dream field, we start to manifest old patterns. We start to react and receive the messages from the world with the perception of the
wounded child. The wounded child’s perception is filling with fear when
that wounded child within us feels threatened. As we are “lighting”
up or ascending, our 100 watt lightbulb turns to 1000 watts and that wounded child will feel threatened. From that wounded perception, the wounded child feels like it is dying.
This may sound extreme but we are re-birthing from the wounded child to the Divine child so it can feel like a death
even if it is on a subconscious level. When this occurs our survival child jumps
into “help” us, but this child is not capable if seeing clearly. People
are experiencing this in all different ways- sadness, a sense of soul tiredness, anger – even rage, denial, repression;
any emotion but love and expanded bliss. We are truly going up to what I call
the Fourth Elevator – a place where we feel love, expansive energies, bliss,
flow, and manifesting our heart’s desires. We are literally creating bridges
– roadways – within our energy fields that help us as we re-birth ourselves.
A lot of people are feeling this shift especially since mid-August. People
might not be able to articulate what is going on in their energy field, but they are feeling the call from their soul to allow
the expansion into our lightbodies. Flow into the energy of love. Feel it in every fiber of your being that you are a piece of Creator – a Master- and Masters do not
get stuck in duality (them against us thinking). That particular kind of energy/thought
keeps us out of the place of empowerment – our Divine Heritage. My son
decided it was in his best interest to assume that the players did not purposely “blow anyone off.” He thought it was a better idea to put thoughts in his field of dreams/manifestation field that the next
game he is standing there getting his autographs. He even decided to put into
his manifestation field that the players would recognize his potential which will lead him to be invited to play on the team
as a twelve year old. What a shift in the energy to put out those expanded love
thoughts instead of feeling like the wounded victim. The “new” energy
is asking us to drop old thought forms of being the victim- “no one can see that I always have this, or that always
happens to me.” We are learning and our soul is reminding us that we are
the writers of our scripts, our lives. If we do not like what is happening on
the outside we need to look on the inside and clear out our limiting perceptions. Doing
this allows us to step into being the Angels we are having this human experience - the Masters. My son then turned the subject to the girls and boys in his class.
He was talking about how much they change when they are around each other now that there are in the sixth grade. I was saying to him that this is the age when people decide to change their thoughts
and behaviors because that is what they think the other people want them to be like, and it all comes down to remembering
to be how they are – be true to themselves. I was going to go into my explanation
of the energy dynamics of that group when Richard looked at me and he pulled his chair back stretching out his feet …
looking quite comfortable… saying “You know Mom, I really like myself just the way I am.” I did not have anything else to say except “I love you.”
So this month comes in with a lot of change. We are being asked to step
into our soul’s contracts – our purpose – and not let the wounded child get into the driver’s seat
of our life creating chaos, soul-tiredness, foggy discontent. Let yourself clear
out from inside out and you will remember how you are - a Creator with a field of dreams/manifestation in front of you.
Namaste, Kerrie
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